Something Personal

Confession:

Many of you that do know me know I'm something like a prude.
Yes I'm a prude.
Yo don't get me wrong I'll knock ya block off and give you the ride of
ya life when I decide that I'm comfy enough to open my legs to you but
there's something that comes with that.

My heart.

See I don't separate sex from emotions because I feel that having sex is
a very intimate act and very serious way of getting to know someone. I
don't use sex as a stress reliever nor something to pass away the time
because I'm bored we horny and our privates should gyrate.

No I don't have serious sex precalculated sex...it keep it fun and love
the act of making babies...just not with anyone just because my twat got
moist.

Yeah ok so many claim: Oh ya pussy must be dry then because of ya lack
of sex.

Haha.

It is in your eyes and in my eyes I'm not a hot topic amongst multiple
people at a random gathering. Or when someone mention my name I'm not
described by my body parts and fuck faces.

There's another reason I am the way I am.

My mother.
She was nasty. A new dude almost every 2 weeks pounding away at her
daily and loud as shit as me and my little sis slept a room away.
Imagine hearing that every night at the age of 11...and wishing just for
some sleep. How could she? Knowing she had children in the next room be
so rude and disgusting showing no form of respect for her flesh and
blood all for 3 40onuces dick and some pocket money?

How could sex run your life so much that you need it?
Get grumpy and upset without because you haven't been fucked?

Now yes I have friends that require sex more often than most and I
understand their need as long as it doesn't effect someone else
I don't give a hot shit.
But...when you disturb others with your nasty ways (not saying yall all
nasty but you get it) enough is enough.

I swore I would never be like my mother...so in many ways yes I'm
emotionally and phytologically scared into not having sex.

Sue me I guess.

But I'm not going to always be like this and I'm sure that when I offer
myself to someone...it will be one awesome night...and I'll be able to
remember more than how good they fuck...